First I have to say PLEASE LOOK AT MY BEAUTIFUL NEW ICON COURTESY OF paddies
. Let us deconstruct what makes this icon amazing: it has pretty Justin and his perfectly perfect early S3 hair, PRETTY JUSTIN IS WEARING RED, AND IT HAS MY NAME ON IT
. ALSO PLEASE SEE THIS ICON WHICH IS EQUALLY BRILLIANT BECAUSE IT FEATURES THE BEAUTIFUL AND GLOWING BRIAN OF EARLY S3 AND HIS QUESTIONABLE PART IS CONVENIENTLY CROPPED OUT OF THE PICTURE
So I have been feeling kind of sad about QAF. Not like weepy and depressed sad, just really missing it, I think. It's not so much the ending (which has finally lost it's sting), it is just that I want more of their story. I want to know about all of the wonderful things that Brian and Justin do together. And yes, people have written fic and there is my imagination, but it's not the same, you know? I'm not nearly as caught up in it as when the finale aired, but every time I log into LJ I am reminded of QAF and then I get that sort of frowny face feeling again :(
I tried to cope by writing and I came up with something
which is sort of unlike anything I have ever written before and helped me feel a bit better but will probably never, ever be read by anyone (well except for zeldachilds
who threatened me with violence). I don't know if I expected it to be some kind of catharsis or something, and I guess it kind of was, but, well, I'm just very :|:|:|:| about the whole thing, and about life in general, really.
I'm going to stop now because I'm getting way too maudlin for a Tuesday morning. Just so you know, I am not like, consumed with grief or anything, I'm just sort of pensively melancholy. Or something.