Okay so who on my friends list watches The Sopranos? Anyone??

OMG I LOVE THIS SHOW SO MUCH AND I CANNOT BELIEVE HOW MUCH I MISSED IT!

So in preparation for this season, since we had to wait so long, I rewatched season 5. Oh Adriana :((:(( The only character on this show whose whacking actually brought a tear to my eye =((

You know I was thinking that Christopher and Adriana are a lot like Angel and Buffy. Let’s see, a sometimes violent relationship? Check. Beautiful love that was doomed from the start? Check. Questionable fashion choices made by the girl? Check. Prominent forehead and/or eyebrows on the guy? Check.

Speaking of Christopher, I don’t even care what he did to his last girlfriend, I totally love him.



I LOVE HIM FOR MANY REASONS, NOT THE LEAST OF WHICH IS HIS IDEA ABOUT WHY THE DINOSAURS AND ADAM AND EVE PROBABLY DID NOT LIVE SIDE BY SIDE :X:X:X:X

Um, okay so I have not posted here in a long time. It’s terrible, I know. So what is new with me, you ask? Not that many things, sadly.

( A little bit about Buffy season 1 )

I miss all of you fandom people sometimes.

Here is a list of things I love very much right now:

1. Dimmer switches
2. The arrival of spring
3. New running shoes

And here are some things I will never understand:

1. Puffy leather couches
2. Corporate speak
3. Republicans

I am currently watching The Sopranos and Big Love. It is highly unlikely that I will ever write gay homo stories about either one of these shows.

Okay so hello LJ, I am still here and not dead at all. I know you were all terribly concerned.

Finally, after many days of procrastination, I finished season 4 of Angel. I wasn’t procrastinating on purpose, I just kind of lost interest. Oh and also I missed Buffy so I had to go back and rewatch. Now I have seen most of Buffy three times through but I have yet to get through all of Angel.

But anyway, season 4. I actually was kind of enjoying it. I wasn’t, like, completely sucked in, but it wasn’t bad. I did however have a slight quibble with the whole ickiness of Connor/Cordelia/Angel, but whatever.

And then I got to the last episode of the season. Um. Okay, see I don’t even know what to say here. That was like the most random, cobbled together ending I have ever seen! Even more than QAF!! I love Buffy with the fire of a thousand suns and I wanted to love Angel too, but that was just really, really terrible. The characterizations were SO BAD and I generally hate the whole “out of character” argument on a TV show. But I mean, really.

And another thing-- I feel like the show totally lost its sense of humor. Cordelia used to be goofy, and Wesley too, and now it’s just like all doom and gloom all the time. Well, except for Lorne, I suppose, and thank god for him. He and Fred’s lab manager were the only people I liked in this episode. Oh, and Lilah.

It’s a shame too, because I felt kind of robbed of a heartbreaking end between Angel and Connor, and I do think that there was potential there for something great. But it was just so bad with the car batteries and the forgetting and the cheesy family speech. And please understand how much it hurts me to say that.

So now I don’t know what to do. I started watching season 5, and the first thing I guess is YAY, SPIKE but I did not survive season 4 unscathed. Some love has been lost, I’m afraid.

Dear Friends list,

Do you remember my little niece who will be dancing to Save the Last Dance? Well, I am giving her an iPod for Christmas because every 4-year-old needs one and I would really like to put that song on it for her only I do not seem to have it on mp3! Please please please would anyone be willing to upload it for me?

Thank you very much and have a smashing holiday.

Love,
Reenabob

My tiny four-year-old niece will be performing her dance recital this year to Save the Last Dance for Me, and my poor sister can barely get through watching her practicing in dance class without weeping. She told me that none of the other moms get it.

I was cleaning up my hard drive and I came across the following chat transcript which I noticed will be exactly one year old tomorrow. For context, I will tell you that Flo and I were discussing BIBW’s reaction to the Brian and Justin Christmas story I wrote for her last year:

reinabelle: OMG I LOVE HER SO MUCH
f1renze : reenabob you are the best little sister ever
reinabelle :
f1renze : omg if we were family and you and bibw were sisters, who am i omg
reinabelle: i am like squealing out loud in delight right now
reinabelle: the evil stepsister
f1renze : ;askjf'asfasfa;lsnf
reinabelle:
f1renze : sdv is her BFF, am i your cousin or am i bibw's lesbian partner
reinabelle: you're the adopted asian daughter of course
f1renze : A;LSFAS;FKJAS;KFJ

Oh Flozie :X:((:X:((:X:((

I had such a ridiculous amount of fun writing that story, conspiring behind burnitbackwards' back with f1renze, susanderavish and url_girl, even though I was sort of freaking out about the whole thing :X

You know, reading the mega-fandom memory post over at juteux's journal has made me really nostalgic. It's like high school. The people that I consider my true friends will always be there, fandom or not, but the essence of what it was like is gone. We still talk, and in some cases our friendship has deepened, but I miss the silly, giggly giddiness of being caught up in all of that. And I've lost track of all those other people that I didn't dislike, but who weren't my super close friends. You know what? That makes me kind of sad =((

Okay I will list my pleasures, but I am not tagging anyone. But you should all do it because it is fun to think about happy stuff :X

1. strawberry cream puffs, especially ones that have just been made

2. new shoes

3. fun stockings and mini-skirts (goes well with #2)

4. peanut butter

5. getting snowed in, especially getting snowed in at my ski mountain

6. grocery shopping

7. cooking big meals for friends and family

8. tiny babies

9. magazines in the mailbox

10. that moment about 4 miles into a run when I feel giddy and fast and I think I can run forever

I seem to have a lot of food related things on my list, but that is not my only source of pleasure in life. Just a really big component :|

So I have not updated in awhile. I really have no explanation.

I am currently wrapped up in the middle of Angel season 3. I am enjoying it. I liked season 2, but then it got kind of goofy at the end. I felt like we were all set up to have this big showdown with Darla and Wolfram and Hart, and then it was just... kind of weird. But it wasn't, like, awful, just not what I expected. But anyway, in season 3 the Darla storyline picked up again, and then all of the stuff with the baby and the self-staking happened, and that was kind of sad. I never expected her to have such a big part in the show. For someone who was killed in season 1 of Buffy, she certainly had a long and prosperous career in the land of Joss.

As for the baby, well he is pretty cute for a kid, but based on the fact that no one on this show (or Buffy) is ever happy for more than 5 minutes at a time, I expect a dire outcome.

To mix things up a bit, I am also re-watching Buffy. I just finished season 2, and I bawled again like a baby. If anything it was actually worse the second time around, knowing what was coming. I also decided that while there are many good episodes, Becoming is my all-time favorite. Just so many perfect moments I can barely stand it.

I don't have much else to report. I guess that is why I have not updated. I'm boring.

So I have had Make Your Own Kind of Music in my head for the past two weeks, and now it is finally gone only to be replaced by Mandy. OH TELEVISIONS, WHAT HAVE YOU DONE??

I am almost done season 1 of Angel (I have 2 eps left) and I have been puzzling a bit about the timeline of events that occurred in the past. I've watched all of Buffy and some of Angel, but I've been sort of frantically getting through and therefore have not really had time to digest it all. Some episodes of Buffy I watched more than once, but mostly I was just trying to find out what happened next, and as a result, little things may have slipped through the cracks. That's where you, loyal Joss fans, come in! I know some of you have seen these episodes many times, and as a result, know them backwards and forwards. So help me, please?

( Sire who? )

I have not posted about Buffy in quite some time. This is not because I have stopped watching; in fact, I have only 3 episodes left until no more Buffy forever and ever :((:((:((

( Seasons 6 and 7 )

Happy birthday to my darling f1renze. Last year on your birthday I had only just met you and I said this:

Despite the fact that I haven’t known you long you’re already one of my most favorite people here

I am happy to report that one year later, you still remain one of my favorite people. I love you more now than I did then, and I have many reasons to wish you a happy birthday:

• Because you are always there when I need you, and you always know exactly what to give me.



• Because I smile when we say goodbye on YIM; even though I know what you’re going to say before you say it, it still fills my heart with joy every time.



• Because I believe in you like I believe in Buffy.



• Because sisters are forever, even adopted Asian ones.

OMG HAPPY BIRTHDAY SDV!!!!

I HOPE THAT YOUR DAY IS V.V. EXCELLENT BECAUSE YOU TOTALLY DESERVE IT. HERE ARE SOME REASONS WHY:

1. YOU LET ME SLEEP ON YOUR FAB COUCH

2. YOU ARE LIKE THE BEST PERSON IN THE UNIVERSE TO TALK TO ABOUT TV'S QUEER AS FOLK

3. YOU LEAVE THE BEST FEEDBACK EVER AND IT TOTALLY MAKES ME SQUEAL IN DELIGHT

4. YOU ARE SO AMAZINGLY KIND AND GENEROUS AND ALSO SMART AND DID I MENTION REALLY HYSTERICAL

OKAY THAT IS ONLY A PARTIAL LIST OF COURSE SO KNOW THAT THERE ARE MANY OTHER REASONS WHY I HOPE YOU HAVE ONE MILLION HAPPY MOMENTS TODAY AND EVERY DAY :X:X:X:X

When I started composing this post, I knew what I was going to title it, but someone already used that, so.

Anyway, I know that Flozie will be happy to hear this important announcement: I HAVE RECOMMENCED WATCHING ANGEL! I am halfway through the first season :D

( Up through and including Somnambulist )

Today is the anniversary of my very first Brian and Justin fic-- I remember I posted it at night and I went to bed feeling apprehensive with half a mind to delete my journal the next day (and also kind of like a pervert), but when I woke up the next day, I had an inbox full of comments. I spent the whole day feeling giddy ;))

A year later, that story actually makes me cringe, and a couple of times I have almost gone back to edit, but in a way I like that it is so flawed because it makes me feel as though I have really improved as a writer. Of course I give most of the credit for that to burnitbackwards who is ridiculously and uncannily good at showing me how to get better :X:X:X

The very first person I talked to in fandom, which was actually before I posted my B/J story, was lennongirl and she was so nice and encouraging which boosted my confidence quite a bit-- Ani, there will always be a special place in my heart for you because of that :X:X

Soon after posting, I got an IM from burnitbackwards. She introduced me to f1renze and it was with the two of them that I experienced my very first chat, and the rest, well, the rest as they say is history.

I have many, many fond memories of those first weeks: SDV giving me interactive chat feedback on one of my very first stories WHICH I HAVE SAVED AND PERIODICALLY GO BACK AND READ ANYTIME I NEED TO FEEL GOOD ABOUT MYSELF, shrieking with laughter listening to Rachel’s work related trauma, Caitie and her vibrator :X:X:X:X, more nights than I can count of giggly drunken chats with BIBW and Flozie, finally, FINALLY meeting Tink who was one of my biggest sources of inspiration for writing in the first place but who remained elusive in my early days in fandom, and approximately 673549607 nights in chat with some or all of the previously mentioned peoples during which I was pretty much like @-) while they told me stories about who was who and what was what in this crazy little corner of cyberspace.

So whether we have ever spoken or not, thank you to everyone who has me friended and who reads my journal for one reason or another (although if I had to guess I’d say it was because of one reason and not another if you catch my drift.) This has been a v.v. fun year, and I only wish I had made it to the party sooner!

After I sobbed and sobbed to Floize about the end of Buffy season 5, she said it might help if I wrote it down. So I did finally! Also, please note that the title of this post is a direct quote from her and I use it with her permission :D

( The season of laughter and tears and delight and also the ripping out of my heart )

Okay so I keep promising that season 5 Buffy post (ALTHOUGH I DON’T THINK ANYONE EXCEPT FLOZIE REALLY CARES!!) but I have something else to say about Once More, With Feeling.

( OMG I love this show )

So I actually have a v.v. long mostly finished season 5 Buffy post floating around somewhere, but I need to put that off for just a bit to talk about the episode that I saw tonight.

( Once More, With Feeling )

Okay so I have been spending some time this evening reading stories by someone who I will not name here about two vampires who I also will not name here and how they dealt with the grief over the death of a vampire slayer who I once again will not name here.

WELL THEN. THAT WAS MY VERY FIRST PORNOGRAPHIC STORY ABOUT THE UNDEAD AND I MUST SAY THAT IT WILL NOT BE MY LAST.

Now I must scurry away for f1renze has demanded that I watch the next episode of season six which my DVD tells me is called Once More With Feeling. AND SHE SAID I HAD TO GO NOWNOWNOWNOWNOW \:D/

Okay so today I fully intend to write up some detailed Buffy season 5 reactions especially for my darling f1renze but I'm just not ready to do it right now. For some inexplicable reason I decided that watching the end of QAF 513 would be a good idea last night. MIND YOU THIS IS AFTER WATCHING THE END OF BUFFY SEASON 5. WHY I DID THIS I HAVE NO IDEA.

So right now I am left with only this: WHY DO MY FANDOMS HATE ME :(( HAVEN'T I BEEN A GOOD FAN :((:((

WHY MUST THEY STAB ME IN THE HEART REPEATEDLY =((=((

(Well okay it really only happened that ONE TIME in QAF but it is quite a regular occurrence on Buffy!)

OH BUFFY :((:(( OH BRIAN :((:(( WHY IS THE WORLD CONSPIRING AGAINST YOU :((:((:((